In a fit of nostalgia, I did something I probably shouldn’t have. I started clicking back through my Facebook photos. I didn’t have to go far before the memories came flooding in. How can something feel like it just happened, but though it never happened at all? What an uncomfortable, and yet irresistible, feeling!
Nostalgia: “A wistful desire to return in thought or in fact to a former time in one’s life, to one’s home or homeland, or to one’s family and friends; a sentimental yearning for the happiness of a former place or time.”
I almost feel like my body can’t catch up to all that’s happened over the past year, but when does it all end? It feels like I’m trying to hold onto water as it slips through my fingertips! It’s maddening, but so exciting. Terrifying, but I can’t wait to see what’s next. Can anyone relate?
I guess all I can do is run! Because life is going so fast; I can’t afford to sit and wait. I’ve heard enough older folks say, “It seems like only yesterday,” and now I realize how true the statement is. Life is but a vapor; here one second, then gone the next.
I remember Leo’s first breaths, now he’s learning to talk, and is laughing and interacting with me. We lay on the floor together and he likes to touch my nose and mouth and make babbling noises at me while I talk to him.
I guess that’s why Paul says he runs the race as though to win a prize, and he beats his body to make it his slave. If we don’t, we’re bound to be ineffective. I don’t want to meet the King as a couch potato! I want to meet him mid-stride; to be leaping a hurdle in pursuit of His commission.
And yet, I’m reminded that often we’re in a place for a reason, and CONTENT is not the same as COMPLACENT.
So here I am, content to serve where I am, but not complacent to stay at the same level as I am. Ever moving forward while still in the same place. How’s that for confusing?! Guess that’s what I get for looking at old photos at 11pm, eh?
Nostalgia? I guess when you boil it all down it becomes pretty simple. Yesterday is gone and will never return, today is here and leaving fast, and tomorrow is always right around the corner. What does your tomorrow have in store for you?
Some late night thoughts from a sanctified sinner,