What a mess I am! I want to be with Leo during this time but I just can’t control myself! I’m such an emotional wreck. After several days of full throttle emotional and physical strain I’m starting to lose it.
Over the past few days I think I’ve walked dozens’ of miles around the city and back and forth from the hospitals and RMH. Day one was terrifying with Lauren having surgery and Leo taking his first breaths. I was so blessed to be given a room in Ronald McDonald house that same night and have been so amazed by that place ever since. It is one of the nicest places we have ever stayed and it really helps us relax.
The other day Lauren was released form Mt. Sinai and joined me at RMH. We haven’t been getting much sleep these past few nights with Lauren having to wake up and pump every few hours so today I feel like I’m running on empty.
I’ve been doing a lot of breathing exercises and standing out in the cold to take away my red eyes, but knowing he has another major operation today (installing a pacemaker and putting a PA band) is really doing a number on me.
Everyone has ben so wonderful during this time! I really wanted to let you all know how much it means to us. Mom Tatum has been taking care of us, and today my parents will be here for some more support. Thanks for all the prayers and love that you’ve sent our way. Please continue to bear with us as the days go on, we may be slow getting news out to you but we both want you to know how much we have appreciated all of the support.
All the best from a tired new dad: