ImageWhat a mess I am! I want to be with Leo during this time but I just can’t control myself! I’m such an emotional wreck. After several days of full throttle emotional and physical strain I’m starting to lose it.

Over the past few days I think I’ve walked dozens’ of miles around the city and back and forth from the hospitals and RMH. Day one was terrifying with Lauren having surgery and Leo taking his first breaths. I was so blessed to be given a room in Ronald McDonald house that same night and have been so amazed by that place ever since. It is one of the nicest places we have ever stayed and it really helps us relax.

The other day Lauren was released form Mt. Sinai and joined me at RMH. We haven’t been getting much sleep these past few nights with Lauren having to wake up and pump every few hours so today I feel like I’m running on empty.

I’ve been doing a lot of breathing exercises and standing out in the cold to take away my red eyes, but knowing he has another major operation today (installing a pacemaker and putting a PA band) is really doing a number on me.

Everyone has ben so wonderful during this time! I really wanted to let you all know how much it means to us. Mom Tatum has been taking care of us, and today my parents will be here for some more support. Thanks for all the prayers and love that you’ve sent our way. Please continue to bear with us as the days go on, we may be slow getting news out to you but we both want you to know how much we have appreciated all of the support.

All the best from a tired new dad:



19 Comments on “Wow….

  1. Hi Mark Hang in there Mark. Lauren needs your support. There are a lot of people praying for you both and Leo. We have started the prayer chain this morning at the church. We appreciate you keeping us informed. love ya Grandma

  2. Hey guys just wanted to know my friends and I are all praying for you here. I wish you all well, baby Leo is so precious miss you and love you guys

  3. It’s okay Mark…this is being a parent, but you don’t have to go it alone! I just finished praying that you and Lauren would sense God’s presence as never before! God is there, cling to HIM! HE created Leo and HE will take care of HIM!!!! Love you and lifting you all!

  4. Mark, I grew up with Ann Carol. Powerful prayers going up for all of you from people who love all of you and have enjoyed watching your family grow. You are surrounded by those prayers…allow yourself to soak them in 🙂

  5. Yes, Grandma is right…Let GOD strengthen you in your weakness….Lauren and baby need you…We are praying for you all here in Montana….You are on the prayer chain at my life group and church as well…Please let us know how Leo and Lauren do with today’s surgeries…Phil 4:9….xoxo

  6. Mark lean on the Lord for strength, peace, and comfort during this roller coaster of a ride!!! God is so good! Make it over the first few hurdles!! God is a God of Miracles, healing, comfort, love, and He is mighty to move mountains!!!! Praying daily for all 3 of you!! I send my love to you all. I so wish I could be there with you, Lauren, and Leo!!! Please give Lauren a hug for me!

  7. I don’t know you and Lauren really at all yet – we only met very briefly during the GBF new families’ night. But you guys have been in my prayers since we first heard about little Leo’s heart. There are so many folks lifting you up in prayer right now, and God is with you. Don’t let go of that hope. PS, it’s okay to be a wreck for a while! Most people are when they have a new baby, even when they aren’t facing the challenge you folks are right now. Hang in there and remember that Jesus is hanging on to all of you.

  8. We are all lifting you up even moment by moment during these days…may you be reminded of God’s available grace, strength, peace and rest…choose what you know to be true…He will enable you to experience those things even amid such UNcertain times…remember that HE is in control and just take each moment at a time…without wondering about the “what ifs”. Can’t wait to meet this new and precious addition to your family…the Luyendyks

  9. I am praying for you guys several times a day. Hang in there Mark, its okay to be emotional. You have been on a real roller coaster these last months and God has seen you through that and will continue to do so. I love you guys and hope to see you soon. Hugs to you both and kisses to baby Leo. My folks and brother send their love and prayers too.

  10. Mark I have been in your shoes, I think its ok to take 30 min or how ever much personal time you need to just relax, cry, pray, or sleep. I have done it all when Erin was in the hospital with Chasity, we too stayed at the Ronald Mcdonald House, (they are a blessing). Anyways my friend everyone is right here you need to lean on GOD, and be strong for your family. I know it is hard but the next few days as you get tireder and more exhausted you will need to make it a point to have a lil (ME) time. If you need a friend to talk too. Call me 817-659-5954. I PRAY FOR YOU GUYS EVERY DAY! THIS WILL ONLY MAKE YOU ALL STRONGER! WITH LOVE THE SCHNEIDER’S

  11. When David was born I was a basket case. Just because he was my first born and son. When they said he had problems with bilirubin I was further more a basket case. It was one of the few times in my adult life where I was emotional for days from being both drained and processing everything. Even though it’s a relatively minor issue it didn’t matter. When it’s yours you worry. It’s okay to cry, pray, cry some more. God gives us more than we can handle so that we run to Him and His body for support. Be a basket case and let it out. May God and His Body carry both of you through this time.

  12. Hi Mark, Thanks so much for taking the time to share when there’s is not much left. This is pretty normal for the father to be emotionaly drained. Know that you are not alone, there are lots of us praying and loving you and your family along the way. Lauren was on my table at ladies bible study, beautiful wife you have inside and out. Steve and I have been standing in the gap praying. Love to all of you

  13. I’m praying for all of you too, Mark . . . thanks for sharing what’s on your heart.

  14. Congratulations on the birth of little Leo!!! And I can imagine that this has all been an incredible strain on you both. Hang in there! We are driving up Sunday so we can have our little Birdy Monday (Lord willing) so hopefully we will be meeting you soon. We’re praying for you!

  15. Tired new dad, you’re the best. Take care. I’ve just read the latest update and am blessed, so I know you two are. What a treasure in Little Leo. Amen?

  16. Mark and Lauren – It’s great to know that the Ronald McDonald House is there for you when you need it. We wish you all the best!
    Jan Gunter
    Ronald McDonald House Charities
    Austin and Central Texas

  17. Hey, almost 14 years ago our last daughter, Naomi was born. She had congeniality corrected transposition along with HRHS. We didn’t know she had anything wrong until she was almost 2 months old. She two had the PA Banding. She didn’t need a pacemaker, but might sometime. Her heart rate runs about 45 – 50/minute. She had her yearly cardiologist appointment just this past week. She is beautiful and is doing well. She had 3 surgeries before she was 2 yr old, but hasn’t had to have any since. Be comforted…comfort your wife. I nursed for 2 months then pumped until she was 5 months old every 2 hr, between feeding her every two hrs. It is hard, but the Lord is gracious. : )

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